Thursday, October 11, 2012

A nightmare

I was in a big happy family once. I had Two brothers, two sisters, two parents that loved me. We lived in a big manor. It was as white and as innocent as I was. I was a curious boy and when I went exploring, I came across a painting in our attic. It was faded brown and showed a family standing outside the manor. Two wizened old parent and a very young girl with ragged hair, Except this family looked angry and evil. They gave me a sinister smile. It was as if I was hypnotized. I touched the painting.
I was sucked in.
My time in that painting was terrible. It was a universe full of hatred. The family in the painting became my own. I was now the son of a wizened old man with decaying teeth and a woman with her hair in a tight bun, with a distant look, a crazed look. The girl became my sister. She was a terrible demon. Her hair was ragged and her fingernails were bloody.My sister (I call her that for want of a better way to describe her) was a she- devil. The horrors I faced at her hands were endless. She strangled me and poked at me with burning pokers. She would pinch and prod and it made me crazy. SHE made me crazy. The old man was no better.  He beat me with the sticks and belts and anything else he could find. Every time I tried to kill myself to escape.  In the painting I soon found out that if you die, you return. You crawl out of the dirt and face more tortures. if you don’t crawl out, you are dug out. It never ends.
 After what seemed like months of torture, I cracked one day. In a crazy rage I hunted down my sister and began to choke her with the old man’s belt. She was gasping for air but I was determined to kill her. To make her hurt.  I was almost going to succeed in killing her when in a burst of energy she pulled out of my grasp and jumped out of a nearby window. I was sure she would resurrect, I waited. But the old man told me she had another place to go. She would crawl out elsewhere. But I would remain here.

Flash forward ten years. The old man continued to torture me after my sister left. But I killed him. The woman was killed much before by the old man. The dusty house and barn belong to me now. I get into the old car and zoom off. I drive for a long time and I reach my destination:  a cold town. It is snowing in this town. But I’m protected by a fur coat. I’m heading towards the beach. The beach is where I shall dig.

I arrive at my destination and I realize I have to wait until sunset. But this beach is a protected area and the guards will  force me to leave.

Suddenly I am someone else. There is a greasy haired boy on the beach, dressed in all back, sitting on the sand next to me. I remember being him but I realize I am not him. I’m myself again. A pretty, petite girl. I try to give the boy as much time. I tell him to continue his hunt, I will distract the guards.
I run to the guards and pretend I’m a tourist. I ask them how to reach a far off place so that they take some time in telling me. Suddenly, there is a siren. The guards tell me that they will take me where I wish to go. It is not safe for a young girl to be alone, they said. Cruel and dangerous things have been happening. I agree to go with them, if only to led them away from the greasy haired boy.
In the open aired jeep, we travel. Two guards in front, one guard at the back with me. It is suddenly very cold. The friendly guard, fair of face and with light, soulful eyes, looks down at me. He gives me a caring look and gently sits closer to me to keep me warm. For the first time since I entered the painting, I feel safe. I know I will be taken care of.
Suddenly, we are being chased. Patches of darkness and shadows of cloaks overwhelm us. But I am safe now, in the Jeep.