Election results are out! And My tiny state is beside itself with joy. Before elections, everyone around me was talking about how voting would have no meaning as all the candidates were equally bad. Now, with the results, i see hopeful faces.
It wills me with so much happiness to see the signs of hope, everywhere around me. People are spreading the word that this new government will be better. I am amazed at how optimistic people can be, even in the light of past failures.
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Going loco
Finally! Its the end of exams. And WOW! This week was really eventful. There was drama, seriousness, a bit of fun and some loneliness. Let's get down to it eh?
This week's drama was, actually, of my own personal making. My numero uno fear has always been, being alone. I cant explain the reason for it, i dont really know it myself. All i know is, I have this innate need to be with friends and family constantly. I'm not a fan of too much alone time. Maybe that's because I know I can drive myself crazy over thinking about things..
Anyway, coming back to the drama. My friends have lives of their own, yes? Turns out I had a bit of trouble dealing with that fact. They had lives and I was feeling left out. And being who i am, i lashed out, at them. Now, this wasnt right of me and everything got sorted in the end but it got me thinking. I've realised one thing about myself, i do NOT adapt to unexpected changes as well as i thought. So i let loose my psychotic side. I am definitely not doing that again.
I guess everyone goes loco at certain times in their lives. And this unleashes a torrent of more crazy. Well, that's what happened to me anyway. i let my loco side get out and WOO! What a hurricane i unleashed. I guess it all did happen for the best, just like everything does. But it still amazes me how small hills can become volcanoes.
This week's drama was, actually, of my own personal making. My numero uno fear has always been, being alone. I cant explain the reason for it, i dont really know it myself. All i know is, I have this innate need to be with friends and family constantly. I'm not a fan of too much alone time. Maybe that's because I know I can drive myself crazy over thinking about things..
Anyway, coming back to the drama. My friends have lives of their own, yes? Turns out I had a bit of trouble dealing with that fact. They had lives and I was feeling left out. And being who i am, i lashed out, at them. Now, this wasnt right of me and everything got sorted in the end but it got me thinking. I've realised one thing about myself, i do NOT adapt to unexpected changes as well as i thought. So i let loose my psychotic side. I am definitely not doing that again.
I guess everyone goes loco at certain times in their lives. And this unleashes a torrent of more crazy. Well, that's what happened to me anyway. i let my loco side get out and WOO! What a hurricane i unleashed. I guess it all did happen for the best, just like everything does. But it still amazes me how small hills can become volcanoes.
Monday, February 13, 2012
Purpose
Have you ever wondered what is the reason for your existence? What is the purpose of your life, your destiny. What's are great big universe's plans for you? A series of events got me to soul search and think about my purpose.
I think my contribution to the good of the world involves being a person people can rely on. I think I'm supposed to be the person that people can talk to about their serious, life changing problems or the other kinds of drama life throws at them. I think I'm supposed to be gentle, understanding and a good of source of advice without interfering directly in the drama.
Except i'm never good at it. I'm judgmental, cranky and a little psycho. I am a good listener when I'm in a good mood, but if you catch me when I'm out of patience, i might just bulldoze you out of your opinions. Maybe that's part of my purpose since it is part of who i am.
Of course, there's no way to be absolutely sure that is my purpose but right now, that's what I've been doing for a while and it suits me just fine.
Its interesting to think what each person's purpose is. We are all different and can't all have the same purposes. But maybe we are all executing God's will without knowing it..
I think my contribution to the good of the world involves being a person people can rely on. I think I'm supposed to be the person that people can talk to about their serious, life changing problems or the other kinds of drama life throws at them. I think I'm supposed to be gentle, understanding and a good of source of advice without interfering directly in the drama.
Except i'm never good at it. I'm judgmental, cranky and a little psycho. I am a good listener when I'm in a good mood, but if you catch me when I'm out of patience, i might just bulldoze you out of your opinions. Maybe that's part of my purpose since it is part of who i am.
Of course, there's no way to be absolutely sure that is my purpose but right now, that's what I've been doing for a while and it suits me just fine.
Its interesting to think what each person's purpose is. We are all different and can't all have the same purposes. But maybe we are all executing God's will without knowing it..
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Friday, February 3, 2012
Society and Friends
Ok. So I'm cheating on my decision to abstain from blogging and other distractions but I need to write. Its a necessity.
The other day I was teasing and talking to one of my guy friends. Not boyfriend, not the only friend who is a boy but a really good friend all the same. It got me thinking, who said guys and girls can't be best friends and nothing more?
He is a really cool guy and its amazing how we connect. I can effortlessly converse with him. Our lifestyles and families have many similarities too. I'm so incredibly blessed to have such a good friend.
That's all we are, though. Friends. We are really close, school friends that are very comfortable in each others company. We've been teased together, gotten each other out of trouble and have generally been there for each other. Why is it that society finds this so unacceptable? Why does society assume we've been a couple? We aren't. We are just incredible friends.
Its about time that society became a little more open minded. Its perfectly normal for boys and girls to be friends. There doesn't always have to be a hidden agenda behind a simple relationship.
My relationship with this friend IS special, that's true. But it isn't the dating kind of special. I guess its just that we've known each other for years and are really at ease in each others company. We're completely ourselves. In my opinion, that's completely acceptable.
The other day I was teasing and talking to one of my guy friends. Not boyfriend, not the only friend who is a boy but a really good friend all the same. It got me thinking, who said guys and girls can't be best friends and nothing more?
He is a really cool guy and its amazing how we connect. I can effortlessly converse with him. Our lifestyles and families have many similarities too. I'm so incredibly blessed to have such a good friend.
That's all we are, though. Friends. We are really close, school friends that are very comfortable in each others company. We've been teased together, gotten each other out of trouble and have generally been there for each other. Why is it that society finds this so unacceptable? Why does society assume we've been a couple? We aren't. We are just incredible friends.
Its about time that society became a little more open minded. Its perfectly normal for boys and girls to be friends. There doesn't always have to be a hidden agenda behind a simple relationship.
My relationship with this friend IS special, that's true. But it isn't the dating kind of special. I guess its just that we've known each other for years and are really at ease in each others company. We're completely ourselves. In my opinion, that's completely acceptable.
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Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Exams!
Bah humbug! I've got exams coming up and its time for me to put a stop to all my distractions (blogging included).
Its going to be tough to keep away from excessive texting, tv time and facebook but I'll have to if I want to succeed in these finals.
Ah Life! Why do you make things so difficult? Its so difficult to achieve anything worth having. Sacrifice and hard work are so important to reach your goals.
Nevermind. It isn't the time to brood over 'why'. Its time to get down to some serious work. I'll need to keep my focus ( as for some reason it keeps getting away from me). Books, here I come!
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