Bad Intentions

I was sad because someone was mean to me. And then i read this.

"you deserve flowers on your doorstep
and coffee in the morning
you deserve notes left on your dashboard
and ice cream sundaes at 3am
you deserve honesty every day
and to be kissed every hour
you deserve to be reminded
how beautiful you are"

I just came across it on StumbleUpon while tripping out on Tasty Network's delicious playlist. And i had a heart softening moment.  I cried. Nay. i wept. I wept for all of them. Who are they? They are the ones who quietly bite their tongues when you are rude. Who are polite no matter what. Who handle things with grace and silence. Because they suffer. No one ever tells them that they are beautiful. No one ever tells them they are sorry; its implied.

thats not the way. It breaks them. Every time you push them against a wall, it takes away a little bit: of their self worth, their respect, their ego.

Don't break people. It's such a beautiful life.

(Pop!) - ular song

Sometimes I have nightmares that make me wake up at night with a silent scream. Sometimes I feel so full of despair that I can feel my heart tear a little (especially if I've re-read "To Kill a Mockingbird")Sometimes I want to kick and scratch and throw things around just because I hate them.

Tangles of a stressed out psycho. 

Know the feeling?

But this stressed out psycho has only one therapeutic treatment. Only one as it’s the one that works. Its therapy that involves bubblegum pop and David Guetta.  Therapy that also involves crunking and twerking and all the other dance moves you would pooh-pooh in public. Yeah. The ones that would make you die of pure embarrassment if anyone found out you've tried them out, just for kicks. Yeah.  Those.

If you haven't already realized, I'm talking about dance therapy. As a teenager of my generation, music is a very integral part of my life. Its of herculean importance! I need to keep up with the latest tracks and dance to them . My life would be insipid without David Guetta, Mika, Calvin Harris, Katy Perry and Lady Gaga. And there's thousands of songs by various artists I haven't credited that have moulded my view of life. 

David Guetta

Katy Perry

So here's to my top genre! BubbleGum Pop. A genre that faithfully fulfills my therapeutic needs. I'm grateful to Katy Perry and Mika.

They're true artists: talented and with much to say. And they've helped me keep my sanity intact.

Tangles of my shopaholic heart

Roaming the market with a friend has always been one of my favorite exercises. The market will never cease to astound me. Its full of strange people, exotic smells, and funny things to buy. We were just aimlessly wandering when my eyes caught on to something incredible. 

It was miniscule. It was Pink. It was glittery. Did I mention that it was wee?

It was a Tiny Pink Hat.

How can anyone ignore that? A teeny tiny pink bowler hat covered in shiny pink sequins! I was so astonished at finding this object that I was immediately overcome by the insuppressible urge to possess this anomaly. I was a zombie. I HAD to buy that tiny hat! Right AWAY!

Unfortunately (or fortunately), my friend talked me out of it and swiftly pulled me away from the sight of it.  It was a tiny hat. It had absolutely no purpose at all. It wouldn't even fit an incredibly malnourished baby's head.

But I cant help but feel a slight twinge of wonder about the hat. For that second, I was under the spell that everyone comes across in the market. I guess some people call it "Impulse Buys" but to a shopaholic like me…it was simply magical.

Have you ever felt like that? What was your equivalent of my Pink tiny hat?

Quis hic locus, quae regio, quae mundi plaga?

On December 21 2012 the world was supposed to end, according to the Mayans. But a few days before, the newspapers were splattered with stories about the Delhi Rape case. This changed my mindset.

It wasn’t the end of the world in the literal sense.  It was the end of the world as we know it. It was time for a great change that would mold the minds of this century. Every century since the beginning of time has had great changes.

In the nineteenth century we saw the industrial revolution which changed almost every aspect of daily life.

In the twentieth century we saw both world wars and the concept of nationalism was born.

They all happened at a time where there was general unrest. The Nirbhaya case felt like a beacon showing me that our world has too many problems at this point in time. And its time to change. 

Death does not mean the end of life in tarot cards or in orneirology.  It is a metaphor for venturing into a change we do not comprehend or know about.  It’s a strange and terrifying adventure and yet, it is a necessary part of life. In the same way, it is time for our society, our mindsets, the world as we know it - to die.

The title is a quotation from Seneca's Hercules Furens (The Mad Hercules), Act 5, line 1138 , where Hercules is wondering where he is and just  says :”Quis hic locus, quae regio, quae mundi plaga ?

I'm wondering where we are in time. What change is coming? Will it be the exciting Zombie apocalypse or the mundane world from The Long Walk by Stephen King? Will it change the state of humanity and displace us from the top of the food chain? Which world awaits us: Dystopia or Utopia? Does our current world fall into either category?

I guess we'll have to wait and see.

Bear Hugs

I have this unshakable belief that hugs and kisses solve every problem. They usually do.

Humans need to feel connected to each other. And hugs are the way to do it. Whenever i’m sad a good long hug makes me feel so much better. I feel like i’m not alone (my prime fear) and just for one moment i feel safe. My worries vanish.

Life is difficult. Every day, we’re fighting for something. Even if it is just to breathe, we’re in constant combat. And whatever it is i’m dueling at that time; my emotions, an opinion, a judgement or a loss, a hug makes me feel better. Heck, it makes everyone feel better. There isnt a person in the world that hasn’t craved a nice, warm hug from somebody.

Hugs can convey so many things. I hug when i’m excited. I hug when i appreciate someone or something. I hug when I’m trying to comfort someone. I hug when I need comfort. I hug to say ‘hello’.  I hug to show people that i’m there for them. It’s just my way.

Simply by putting my arms around someone and squeezing, I feel better, and so do they. Its just one of the ways in which we bind our souls to each other.