Saturday, December 15, 2012

2 ingredient recipes

My oh my. I love to cook. I do. From pasta to pie, I love to cook. Warm brown crusts on fried chicken and patting down the snow white and sandy layers of serradura make my heart sing. Food has always been a dear subject for me. I truly believe that the way into ANYONE's heart is through their stomach.

 Yet, sadly, i'm always faced with a tragedy.Finding ingredients in this tiny town is impossible.

So imagine my surprise when i found a post for 2 ingredient recipes! 

They aren't extravagant and they may not be too professional, but they are perfect for snacking or last minute desserts.

My favourite is the two ingredient truffles. They're perfect for so many things: gifts, dessert, ice cream sundaes, midnight binges.

Melting Chocolate + Cream Cheese = Chocolate Truffles
 Chocolate truffles
And i'm sure my sister would LOVE the nutella cake that i shall recreate as soon as i can to apologize for being a bad sister.  I'm sorry, sweetheart. I never meant to hurt you.




Nutella + Eggs = Flourless Nutella CakeNutella cake

 There are many, many more of these recipes. Just follow this link.

Enjoy!

Friday, December 7, 2012

My little oddity

I have this irrational fear of being alone. This is a strange development of recent months as, by nature I am an introvert.

I used to enjoy being alone for hours, devouring a good book or playing a video game. Nowadays, i still enjoy my alone time but i need the television on, or some music needs to play in the background.

Hmm. maybe its not loneliness i fear.. it's silence. I find the silence frightening. To me it seems like all the ghosts of my past, all the frightening memories lay in the dark silence. They are slyly waiting to creep into my thoughts. And i know that if they do creep into my thoughts, I will have to face them. I will have to turn it over in my head until i no longer fear them. But as of now, i can not.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Back on track

Yay! Today was a very exciting day. I have been preparing for a presentation for English class for two weeks. Today, my teacher not only congratulated me on my elocution skills but she also said my group's presentation was so fantastic that she had no questions for us. It really is the little things that help you pick yourself up from a fall.

I've been depressed lately.. I am seventeen years old and i want to be able to only worry about getting high test scores and playing minecraft. I want to worry about boys and friends and pets. Iwant my life to be predictable and ordinary.

But something so simple, so ordinary set me back on track. Being appreciated.


Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Damaged

Our world is seriously damaged.  Everyone has a different story and everyone is hurting. I understand that. Everyone has pain in their lives. What i dont understand is how people can be so indifferent to this pain.

If your friend or sister or brother or daughter/son or your parents were in trouble, what would you do? From my experience, people love to lecture other people. That way they seem like they are doing what they should when they're only making it worse. Why doesn't anyone just say, "How can i help you out?" That's what a person who is messing up wants to hear. They want help. They dont need a lecture. They dont need another person telling them what they're doing wrong. They already know that. If all you have to say to them is advice on how to do better, keep it to yourself. It's better off you leave them alone to find their way rather than to give empty advice and pretend like you care.

If a person has trouble getting up, dont advise them to go to bed earlier. That doesn't help anyone. Show that you actually care by waking them up. If they are backtracking on studies, its not helpful to say "You need to work harder". Offer to help!

Seriously. The world needs to know this.

Another thing, to all you people hurting, its not the end of the world. Fight against all those losers that give you advice. Tell them to leave you alone, because trust me, you are better off alone. And if you need any help, feel free to message me. I'm happy to help.

Thursday, October 11, 2012

A nightmare

I was in a big happy family once. I had Two brothers, two sisters, two parents that loved me. We lived in a big manor. It was as white and as innocent as I was. I was a curious boy and when I went exploring, I came across a painting in our attic. It was faded brown and showed a family standing outside the manor. Two wizened old parent and a very young girl with ragged hair, Except this family looked angry and evil. They gave me a sinister smile. It was as if I was hypnotized. I touched the painting.
I was sucked in.
My time in that painting was terrible. It was a universe full of hatred. The family in the painting became my own. I was now the son of a wizened old man with decaying teeth and a woman with her hair in a tight bun, with a distant look, a crazed look. The girl became my sister. She was a terrible demon. Her hair was ragged and her fingernails were bloody.My sister (I call her that for want of a better way to describe her) was a she- devil. The horrors I faced at her hands were endless. She strangled me and poked at me with burning pokers. She would pinch and prod and it made me crazy. SHE made me crazy. The old man was no better.  He beat me with the sticks and belts and anything else he could find. Every time I tried to kill myself to escape.  In the painting I soon found out that if you die, you return. You crawl out of the dirt and face more tortures. if you don’t crawl out, you are dug out. It never ends.
 After what seemed like months of torture, I cracked one day. In a crazy rage I hunted down my sister and began to choke her with the old man’s belt. She was gasping for air but I was determined to kill her. To make her hurt.  I was almost going to succeed in killing her when in a burst of energy she pulled out of my grasp and jumped out of a nearby window. I was sure she would resurrect, I waited. But the old man told me she had another place to go. She would crawl out elsewhere. But I would remain here.

Flash forward ten years. The old man continued to torture me after my sister left. But I killed him. The woman was killed much before by the old man. The dusty house and barn belong to me now. I get into the old car and zoom off. I drive for a long time and I reach my destination:  a cold town. It is snowing in this town. But I’m protected by a fur coat. I’m heading towards the beach. The beach is where I shall dig.

I arrive at my destination and I realize I have to wait until sunset. But this beach is a protected area and the guards will  force me to leave.

Suddenly I am someone else. There is a greasy haired boy on the beach, dressed in all back, sitting on the sand next to me. I remember being him but I realize I am not him. I’m myself again. A pretty, petite girl. I try to give the boy as much time. I tell him to continue his hunt, I will distract the guards.
I run to the guards and pretend I’m a tourist. I ask them how to reach a far off place so that they take some time in telling me. Suddenly, there is a siren. The guards tell me that they will take me where I wish to go. It is not safe for a young girl to be alone, they said. Cruel and dangerous things have been happening. I agree to go with them, if only to led them away from the greasy haired boy.
In the open aired jeep, we travel. Two guards in front, one guard at the back with me. It is suddenly very cold. The friendly guard, fair of face and with light, soulful eyes, looks down at me. He gives me a caring look and gently sits closer to me to keep me warm. For the first time since I entered the painting, I feel safe. I know I will be taken care of.
Suddenly, we are being chased. Patches of darkness and shadows of cloaks overwhelm us. But I am safe now, in the Jeep.