Progress

My tens walls were whittled to six and I'm glad to say that finally the rubble has been cleared away and I've built some new walls.

Two walls had crumbled from the impact of the  lies and arrogance launched at them. The rubble from these two has been cleared away. They will not be rebuilt.  It makes me sad that I've lost people that were so important to me because of such petty human errors. But I don’t regret it because I've found some beautiful diamonds in the rubble.

The wall that was breaking due to vanity has been rebuilt. The cracks are still visible and the wall may yet crumble, but for now, my friend needs me in her life. And I'll be there for her for as long as she'll have me.

Also, I've built a new wall. A strong, thick wall, decorated with beautiful memories. This wall is a little distant from where I stand but nonetheless it is important. This new wall I've built with the utmost care. I've supported it when it was vulnerable and new and I've leaned on it when I felt like all my walls were crumbling. This wall is cemented with respect and understanding.  This wall is for my brother. He's moving away but he and I will always stand by each other. To me, that's what really matters.

Ten walls whittled to six

I am a fiercely possessive person. I'm intensely attached to the people I care about. Anything that changes in my relationships instigates feelings of insecurity. I'm not good at handling change.
I build thick walls I  around me. Each brick is symbolic of the friendships, love and memories that I will never give up. These walls were crumbling. I lost four friends in two years. That's four out of ten walls. My bricks were slowly whittled away by lies, arrogance, betrayal and change. I am even more possessive about my family and friends now. I can't afford to lose anyone anymore.
These ten walls were ten people or groups of people that influenced my life the most. One is my parents, the second, my sister, the third, fourth and fifth are three separate Walls for my three best friends. The sixth wall is one of my cousins and her mum and dad. They've been on my side through everything. The last three walls were three people I lost.  I lost one to lies, one to arrogance and one to vanity.
I build these walls because I believe they protect me and comfort me. And im fiercely protective of them also. These walls are the structure of my life.