Another loss.

I'm sorry we'll never be best friends or even friends as close as we used to be. It pains me to realize I've lost you. I tried to keep it going but I can't pretend to be friends with you anymore.You're different now. You and  I have changed so much; some of it together, some of it apart.

You used to listen to my nonsense banter and rantings. I used to listen to you talk about your temper tantrums and general run ins with friends. I used to be able to listen to your criticism without feeling like you were targetting me. You used to be able to listen to my advice, without thinking I was interfering too much.

We used to be able to talk about anything and everything; Wild chickens, demonic kitties, your random political talk and my wild instinctive dislike for people.

But it's all different now.

You seem arrogant, annoyed and damaged. I seem egotistical, judgmental and pathetic. I miss what we used to be.

But we never really tried. We fell out of each others worlds as easily as we fell into it. 

This reminds me of a poem a fellow blogger posted not too long ago.

 Sometimes I Miss You, Sometimes I Don't
Sometimes I miss you,
Sometimes I don't,
And every time I think of you, I say I won't,
You mess me up, like nobody other,
I did love you, but now I shudder.
Where were you, when I needed you the most?
When things were bleak and all you did was boast,
Was it so hard, to say a word kind?
To be a friend when everyone else was blind.
And yet in all this, the fool is still me,
For I think of you sometimes, though not very kindly,
Its been so long, yet the bitterness is still here,
It ain't going nowhere for a while, I fear.
Though don't worry love, that time will come,
When i will look at you wonder how on earth did I think that you were the one;
But that time, I will have the last laugh,
For this battle with myself, will be nothing but the past.
Then, Sometimes I will miss you and Sometimes I won't
And every time I think of you, matter, it won't
Darkness will touch our memories no more,
And we will find, what we set out to look for.